A Sudden Realization
I woke up today realizing I no longer wanted to teach. It's been coming on for a while, really. One thing has led to another, and I just feel it's not for me. Now, with a full time job, I don't feel I can give teaching the attention it deserves. But it's more than time management abilities. It's desire. I woke up today wanting to go into my writing and editing job--to the office--and do that work and see those people. In that moment I realized I found what I am supposed to do.
I've been praying about this for a while too. Do I completely stop teaching? Or do I just limit what I'm willing to take on? Today felt like a clarification from God about my next steps.
I went back to teaching when I left my previous job and this storm started. It was something I knew, and I was desperate to get out of the job I was in. In a time of complete turmoil, I needed a comfort zone. Since my second year of graduate school, I have enjoyed teaching, but I always felt there was something missing. I think I know what that is now, and I'm going to go after it.
I've also been praying about beginning a new project. I would not have time to devote to this project if I continued to teach, and this project is something that has been on my mind for a long time. (I will reveal more when it is solidified and I have taken the steps to make it happen, but keep an eye out.)
I feel like God is leading me in a direction I have waited a long time to be led in, and I am really looking forward to what is next.
These sudden realizations can be scary, but if you have been talking to God about a potential change, it may be a sign from Him. I've learned it's important to stay in prayer, even about "the little things." He may use the little things to begin moving us forward.
So if you have a decision to make, big or small, ask God. He will provide you an answer.