Based in Frederick, Maryland, Digital Ink & Parchment is a blog by Alexandria Pallat. Her posts explore the integration of faith in every day life.

Mental & Physical Preparation

Mental & Physical Preparation

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This season has been a trying one for me, and God has guided me through ways to navigate it. Through His direction, I have turned to writing and exercise to manage my anxiety and depressive symptoms, both of which are far healthier than the alternatives. I've talked about how running helps me get out of my head, but I don't think I've mentioned that I signed up for the Disney Princess Half Marathon in February. In preparation for this, I've signed up for other races strategically between now and then. And Sunday is race 1: a 10K.

I ran 6.2 miles last Sunday as a practice run, so I'm toning down my running this week. Instead, I'm doing light exercises and some yoga--all from the comfort of my apartment. Nutrition is equally as important as the actual physical exercise, so I'm also being conscious of what I eat.

Only three days in to this "regimen", and it hasn't been easy. I'm tempted by cookies and Halloween candy every day. And, admittedly, I bought a pizza for dinner (though I didn't finish all of it!). But having just completed Beachbody's 80 Day Obsession, I am feeling confident that I can control myself...at least better than I used to be able to.

But physical preparation is only half the battle. Mental preparation is just as important. And as I've only ever run 5Ks before, my mind is doing it's fair share of negative self talk: Why on earth did you sign up for this? You don't have self control when it comes to food. You're no different now. You're never going to be able to do that half-marathon. 

Unlike the old me, this me isn't going to give in to that nonsense. There are times on my runs when, even through the music blaring in my ears, that negative voice decides to be louder and I physically shake my head to shake it off or say a silent prayer. There have been times when, mid workout in the privacy of my apartment, I've actually said out loud "shut up!" to no one but that voice. There have been moments I have cried out loud "Jesus, please!" when the voice seems to be too much in control. The funny thing is, when I do that, I have this mental picture of, what I call, "bitch-me" making an angry face--lip curl, raised eyebrow, side eye--and giving me a doubting look while she fades back into the darkness. Because she knows she's been defeated. It may only be for that moment, but she has been. And she will continue to be defeated one moment at a time.

Because that is how progress works. It doesn't happen overnight. We won't get rid of negative self talk in one day. We won't cry out to Jesus and suddenly everything is better right then. We won't because it's those moments--the moments we need His grace and His strength the most--that help make us stronger.

Physical preparation means I eat right and do physical practices that will make me stronger but not wear me out or injure me. Mental preparation means I talk myself up this whole week, I excitedly tell others what I'm doing, and tell myself I will finish strong.

I don't know what being prepared looks like for you, but it's an important step in getting over any humps and in being prepared for when that negative voice creeps in. Being prepared doesn't mean dwelling on the negativity; it means knowing what can trigger it and combating it accordingly.

I know my preparation journey--be it physical or spiritual--is far from over. And neither is yours. Stay in it in faith. It will get better, but only if you prepare.

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