An Aching Heart
Slow weekends give me time to relax and process. This is especially true when the week leading up to the weekend has been a good one. And this last week was. So I planted myself at home. took some time for myself, and watched The Twilight Saga. The thing is, I haven’t watched a love story in over 2 years. It’s been far too painful. I thought I would be fine, so I subjected myself to the familiar story.
I loved the Twilight series in both its book and film form. As any reader, I was disappointed with many of the decisions made for the films, but I enjoyed them nonetheless. And I enjoyed them this weekend, too. But there were still painful parts.
While I could relate heavily to how Bella felt in New Moon, the painful jolt didn't make an appearance until Breaking Dawn: Part 1, when Edward toasts at their wedding that forever with Bella wouldn’t be long enough. Yes, I am sappy and a romantic at heart. And I could still hear the voice that told me the same thing.
While my heart ached, I thought about how much I’ve changed in this season, and I realized that God has used my aching heart to help rebuild my faith and who I am. Through this season, I’ve found the girl I thought was lost. And for that, I am grateful.