A Fear of Spiders
A necessary evil of having two (wonderful) kitties is the twice daily cleaning of the litter box. As I was cleaning the litter box the other day, I came across a huge (uh...to me) spider, and I let out a scream before realizing no one is going to come to destroy the spider for me. I stared at this thing for a solid minute, panicking, trying to think of how to kill it.
In case you can't tell, I have a huge fear of spiders. I don't really know why other than that they look really creepy. Or maybe it was the weird story I heard about brown recluse spiders when I was a kid... Either way, I just don't. Do. Spiders. So when I saw this spider, I just freaked. I instantly started thinking about how long it had been there, had the cats encountered it, had it hurt the cats, was it going to jump on me as I tried to kill it...? (I know, none of those are exactly sane thoughts.)
But it reminded me of how I've always begged my husband to kill the spiders. So I did what any writer does--I wrote about it. Specifically, I wrote a poem.
I am by no means over my fear of spiders. I would still rather not encounter them at all. But I've realized this is an opportunity to tackle things on my own, including my fears.