Day 18: God Knows Who I Am
How did it go?
Another day of travel. This time, though, it was to visit family.
I didn’t realize how hard it might be on my heart to visit. I always cry when I see my dad, because I usually have a long time between visits, and this time was no different. Coming back also brought me back to when my relationship began.
The few hours I’ve been “home” have brought on a lot of emotions.
I’ve also realized whatever I am going through has helped me connect more with my dad.
Maybe I am beginning to see the small blessings in everything.
I also came across an article today while sitting in the airport on healing anxiety, and I found it pretty powerful. I think I am going to take some of the advice about writing and health and see where it takes me. Maybe if I feel I am dedicating time to my writing (and thereby my spiritual body) and maybe if I feel better about my physical body, I will begin to feel better overall.
What did I learn?
While on the airplane, I was able to journal a bit, and I was able to continue to see what gives me anxiety.
I don’t really know who I am.
Day 11 of this challenge was about researching myself, and I think that’s something that will continue. I know, you’re thinking well, duh, you don’t just find yourself overnight. I think I was hoping I would.
For a while now I have felt that, at 25, I’m supposed to know who I am and exactly what I want in life. I guess that’s part of the whole needing to plan everything part of myself. As it turns out, I may not know exactly what I want or who I am.
And that’s okay.
So I’m going to do more than research myself—I’m going to experiment. I’m going to pray for guidance, direction, and self-discovery. Because God knows who He wants me to be.