Moving Through the Broken Pieces
When you feel broken, you feel shattered beyond repair. And that is the point of brokenness. But God does wonderful things with those broken pieces. It's often in those broken pieces that He works the most amazing of miracles. But the waiting can be agonizing. So how do we get through the waiting? The honest answer is by turning to Him. But that isn't always the easiest course of action for us humans, especially when we feel hurt, disappointed, or as if God has forgotten us. (He never has, by the way.) The chapters of the It's Not Supposed To Be This Way study this week really made an impact on me and made me stop and pause. These two years, I've felt like dust, and I've been asking God "how can I possibly get through this?" His answer has always been the same: spend time with Me.
The past few weeks have felt difficult as I've felt another depressive episode coming on. It's like a rolling tide, and I'm still learning how to manage it. Exercise has helped significantly, but what I'm really missing is time with the Lord. I've allowed my discomfort, my anxiety, work, and my self-conscious attitude to take up the forefront of my mind instead of focusing on Him.
How am I going to change that? By setting aside one hour of each day to spend with Him however I need. But how? My goal is to pray each day to find the best way to spend that time with Him that day. And how do I know it is God guiding me, not myself? Honestly, I'm going to have to quiet my mind enough to listen, which can be tough for me. But I know that's the only way I can get through this between space.
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Do you struggle to quiet your mind to listen for God? What are your tactics for quiet?
How do you spend time with the Lord each day?